March 11, 2010 | Mama Smith

tucked away

The past two months, as one can imagine, have been a bit of a messy blur. Loss and sadness mixed with routine and changes – house selling, house purchasing, new exciting jobs for Matthew, a birthday for Levi, new school choices for the boys. I feel a bit dizzy here in the middle of March, hoping for some settledness internally amidst the upheaval circumstantially.

In 4 weeks, we’ll pack up our home and move to the third house we’ve “owned” within a 2 year stretch. And somehow I know there is an internal rest and joy to be had in the midst. That concept makes no sense to my puny, exhausted brain. But feels like a water and hope to my dry, dry soul.

With all the swirling circumstances around us, our family has chosen to stay tucked away these past few weeks. Piling on the floor for family movies, enjoying the longer warm evenings with walks to the park, and trying to soak up this new wild stage our boys are rambling in to as a 3 and almost 5 year old. Realizing again that as much as our head knows it, our heart is so quick to forget that these moments are life. All the temporal things – new jobs, new houses, new things – is just accent salt on the real meal.